Sunday Lesson

I know that some of my posts tend to get very personal. This is one of those posts. I probably should save it as a journal entry, but there are a few of you friends that I want to share this with. You know who you are.

It has been 21 days since my last post and a lot of changes have happened. Right now I am sitting at my sewing machine on a camping chair in an empty house typing a blog for my last night here. I am very relieved to get out of this house tomorrow but only because I subconsciously on purpose have made this home my personal hell for the past 2 weeks. My way of coping with change is by trying to make my circumstances seem crummy so that I will want a change. When the truth is I have never wanted things (most things) to stay the same more in my life, and change is the last thing on my mind. My home is beautiful, my neighbors are truly my best friends (and Eddy's), my yard is my sanctuary, and we love every minute here. But there is more to mine and Danny's future than me being a homemaker. So change is coming.

Today at church one of my good friends gave a lesson on the Holy Ghost (WARNING: time for spirituality) She asked us to think about a time in our life when we have felt the Holy Ghost help us. Here is my experience:

Danny and I had been struggling for a while about whether or not we should sell our house (1 year to be precise) and this summer we were at the end of our rope. EVERYTHING was not working out. When I say everything that is what I mean. Danny was sick all of the time, job interviews that we thought were in the bag were not working out, new job sucked with a capital S, homes were not selling, Eddy got sick again, I was depressed, and the list could go on but it wont. Then we decided to fast and pray whether we should sell. The answer came to both of us that we should...but we had no plan. Where would we go? What would we do? We didn't know, but we knew that we needed to leave our h0me. After 2 weeks of being listed, our home had ZERO calls on it, we lowered the price and still not one. Once again the spirit helped us in deciding that we should put our home up for rent. That weekend we had one family come look at it, they called us 5 minutes after they left and said they wanted it. The next week, Danny got a job offer in California, his job here was finally going better than ever, his endoscopy came back GREAT, and everything has just fallen into place. So when I get sad and lonely thinking about how difficult it is going to be leaving my wonderful friends and family, I just think about the spirit that I felt that day that we rented our house. The weight that was lifted from my shoulders, the peace that I felt after such a long time of chaos, and I know that it will all work out. I don't know how but I know it will. And that feeling of comfort is something that only the Holy Ghost can give to me. I'm going to miss it here that's for dang sure, but I'm confident that I will be just as happy in the years to come.

Still not reality

A LOT happened this last weekend:
We went to Idaho
I did the Spudman
We took our house off the market
Olive cut a tooth
We rented our house out
And finally decided that we are moving to California.
WHAT? Wait. Im a Berthold and as J.J. puts it, "The tit doesn't stretch that far!" Yes, my family is very close, yes we see eachother almost daily, and yes I will miss my mommy but I am also very excited. It is going to be a great adventure for us.
Here is the plan:
We move out of our house the end of this month
Renters move in September 1
We stay with my rents and Danny heads to California
He will live with his sister while his job gets started
Once settled and more stable we will join him in Sonoma County

Wow. It's still not reality but it becomes more real every day. Im so glad we are keeping our home, I think it will make the transition easier knowing that we are still connected here. I will miss my Kaysville family so much. There is a lot we will miss, I could make a list of 1000 things and more. We will be grateful for the amazing times we have had here and get excited for the new adventure that awaits us.